job

I have a job. At Ontario High School in Ontario, CA. I don't know if I'm happy about it or not. I don't know. This is not how I dreamed it would be. I don't feel excited. I feel apprehensive that I made the wrong decision.

The nice thing is that I'm totally content to be here in Cali. I don't really miss people yet, at least not that ache like I get when I'm in CF and I can't see someone. I have been talking to everyone (except one important person) on the phone and stuff, but I am not sad that I'm not home. I'm going to be sad to leave here I think. These are good feelings. I am glad that I know I'm going to be happy and maybe happier than I've ever been here. Not that it's about happiness. But yeah, I feel like God's got some awesome things for me here. I'm happy, even in the freeways when the ave speed is about 20 mph. I'm happy at the beach, I'm happy up north with the beautiful mountains. I'll be happy when I get a manicure and pedicure tomorrow. I'm happy with the great stores that are here and the GREAT guacamole Tanya bought. I'm happy to know I will have a job and a steady income. I'm happy that I will be getting up at 6:00 every morning, I'll just remind myself it's only 8 at home!! :)

I have to find an apartment now. I'm kinda overwhelmed by that. Too many big decisions to make in only 4 days!!!!